My Memoirs of Ana & Mia

Here I am, I made another huge mistake That life seems like a cycle, so much held at stake, I turned 31, and I have had a bad 2 months that escalated again, I am spending the last day of 2018 trying to stay strong, to fight and win, That i fucked up today, i fucked up this month, and the last, and that's okay We all fuck up, we all make mistakes and are misunderstood in some way, But this time it's the ending of a year that was this tornado of events, That through so much hope, came crashing waves of terror, and i lost my common sense I greet darkness, my old friend like the song people always use. But to me darkness lurks in the shadows of where light is shining, unable to diffuse. I have this pain that attaches itself to my soul, that likes to weigh me into this same old hole That the people I was friends with, blood related too, nowhere around me now, and I feel so confused, or pause as to what I should go ahead and decide which part of my mind I am visiting wish...

Have you ever looked down that dark alley way? The residents that hide their secret powers to escape each day? The drug that is running through their vein, The only part of life that is comfort for keeping them sane, Nothing else to get up for, no bed to sleep in at night, Life didn't begin this way, and it's been so much of a fight, That the people who call the cops and scream out 'JUNKIE, DIE' Misunderstood and demonised by society. Good people deep down, but a need to get high. Not knowing how to break a cycle that has become their lifeline, their way and their need From a joint, to a line, bottles of beer and to the crack pipe,  it all seems like an addicts greed But desperate for escape, or something more to breathe, comes the needle that enters the vain And to the devil , their soul has been sold and nothing to lose, nor nothing to gain Just the score of the usual, the habit that is their life. The addiction and toxicity. Being the drugs slave. No way...

You could spread your arms like wings and fly An audience is invisible and their pleas i don't hear To get down and back and that safety is near Like sounds far away, i dismiss the danger i am putting my life into by this moment i feel I felt free and capable and not held down by the fears people would feel I felt as powerful as an eagle to sore down and fly away Unaware of how detached my own mind had its own way I never thought who could catch me if i was to fall The thought of consequences were not there at all How a mental state had got me this way Found on a ledge, and just the other day Naked and looking for a lake to swim The heat and the mind that thoughts were racing so fast i needed to strip down to be bare A raving lunatic screaming for it to stop But a soul in great disarray No comfort or focus to save me from the last of my dignity, nobody to call the ambulance and make me sedate For time went on and i look back its too late I have supervision and...