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PRODIGAL FRIENDS

i think of all the times we shared, not just in person, but the ones we used to get through the nights The sounds of silence that scream out loudly that we need the connection, & the glare from the street lights. They shine down the road, of both our streets, it shows life outside, and that alone is how we just feel so your talks, your listening, and needing a friend, was some soul dedication i'd protect to the end That it's not the kind of thing you fear, your impact, those moments we did share, they calmed my fear and I don't forget sweet words you said. A charmer, a gentleman, sweet talker, or maybe just the real you. Stripped from the insecurities that eat you alive,  that you never knew how else to survive The way that brought structure to the day, your active life. The people that twisted a blade through your back with a bloody knife. The backstabbers that were best friends, family that wanted you to fall, The pain you endured, and shared right away, it ...

2014 depression poem i found

Today was the day the wounds burned too deep.  Today was the day that this life I could not keep. Today was the day that I killed the pain.  Today was the day I left this world in vain. Today was the day I let go i stopped caring at all, Today was the day I made that final fall  Today was the day I left behind life, I quietly died. Today was the day my sorrow lead me to suicide.

2019

I have never fit into the box this generation, or "millennials" are. I cannot connect to a photo, therefore do not use tinder. I am not into being a famous social status on social media, i post about astrology, deep issues, advocate issues people are afraid to talk about and post selfies that could be considered unique, and not typical. I don't put many friends up, i rarely go out anymore and have no close siblings, or earn a huge income to show off a life of travel, beach vacations and dreams. I do have dreams, i have connections (emotional and spiritually) and i have battled the grips of mental illness, sexual assault, loneliness, addiction and chronic pain. I refuse to let that make me become a stereotypical version, but i have to say i have let stigma grow by not being the person who had it under control. I hate people who feel they need to say love yourself first, or profound advice that is not anything to do with what you are feeling. I don't date for 3 months ...