I have never fit into the box this generation, or "millennials" are. I cannot connect to a photo, therefore do not use tinder. I am not into being a famous social status on social media, i post about astrology, deep issues, advocate issues people are afraid to talk about and post selfies that could be considered unique, and not typical. I don't put many friends up, i rarely go out anymore and have no close siblings, or earn a huge income to show off a life of travel, beach vacations and dreams. I do have dreams, i have connections (emotional and spiritually) and i have battled the grips of mental illness, sexual assault, loneliness, addiction and chronic pain. I refuse to let that make me become a stereotypical version, but i have to say i have let stigma grow by not being the person who had it under control.
I hate people who feel they need to say love yourself first, or profound advice that is not anything to do with what you are feeling. I don't date for 3 months and find someone else. I am empathetic and i don't care what you earn, eat or how much fake tan or gym sessions you use to aim for an aesthitcally pleasing look.
Your mind and intellect is like mental foreplay and seducing that, listening and getting deep into conversation is what makes me happy.
I love people who talk about their adventures to places not many have been, their hobbies and loves whether it be their job, helping people, musician, acting, sport or their pet. I love your passions because they make you unique and not part of the wall street society that Sydney has become.
I broke down 2018, just like I had in my early 20s but not as severe. I had a manic episode, i rove people away and i came acrosxs as someone sick, demanding, overbearing, a mind so fast that a machine gun of words...i hurt myself, i seemed like i was going backwards and 2019 started off with a horrible vibe.
I know this transition of saturn has been a long and painful lesson. Maybe we revisit our pasts to finish off what we didn't learn so young and remember a windy road ahead will bring the ones who are prodigal and mentally connect back and not this constant war, or shallow and empty world of coldness and nobody connects because responsibility seems so much and hanging out with the opposite gender seems like it should be more. People lose touch with who they are, so they question everyone else.
We live in a generation of rules and laws and i just can't fit in to that.
I worry about my appearance and i am humiliated by my own episodes. I can only find myself recovering and not being weak and hoping until hope ends, i have topush myself hard because i have seen the progress in short time, and have let demons in and not befriended them. I need belief and faith and to learn the values of others, and my own too. Not just in anger and pain, in morals and love. I love every friend i ever had, and i am hoping for a better year because for that would be glad. Sometimes things keep going wrong, the lesson is deep. The surface things change but pain is an inevitable part of our journeys and people will not always really be there and loyalty confuses me, like empathy and soul love.
I hate people who feel they need to say love yourself first, or profound advice that is not anything to do with what you are feeling. I don't date for 3 months and find someone else. I am empathetic and i don't care what you earn, eat or how much fake tan or gym sessions you use to aim for an aesthitcally pleasing look.
Your mind and intellect is like mental foreplay and seducing that, listening and getting deep into conversation is what makes me happy.
I love people who talk about their adventures to places not many have been, their hobbies and loves whether it be their job, helping people, musician, acting, sport or their pet. I love your passions because they make you unique and not part of the wall street society that Sydney has become.
I broke down 2018, just like I had in my early 20s but not as severe. I had a manic episode, i rove people away and i came acrosxs as someone sick, demanding, overbearing, a mind so fast that a machine gun of words...i hurt myself, i seemed like i was going backwards and 2019 started off with a horrible vibe.
I know this transition of saturn has been a long and painful lesson. Maybe we revisit our pasts to finish off what we didn't learn so young and remember a windy road ahead will bring the ones who are prodigal and mentally connect back and not this constant war, or shallow and empty world of coldness and nobody connects because responsibility seems so much and hanging out with the opposite gender seems like it should be more. People lose touch with who they are, so they question everyone else.
We live in a generation of rules and laws and i just can't fit in to that.
I worry about my appearance and i am humiliated by my own episodes. I can only find myself recovering and not being weak and hoping until hope ends, i have topush myself hard because i have seen the progress in short time, and have let demons in and not befriended them. I need belief and faith and to learn the values of others, and my own too. Not just in anger and pain, in morals and love. I love every friend i ever had, and i am hoping for a better year because for that would be glad. Sometimes things keep going wrong, the lesson is deep. The surface things change but pain is an inevitable part of our journeys and people will not always really be there and loyalty confuses me, like empathy and soul love.
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